Saturday, December 29, 2007
5:11 AM
I'm zonked out.
today has been a crazy day.
It was a day exciting at first.
in the early ours of the morning.
then she had to go.
then when i woke up.
it was all good.
till thing took a sudden
swing around and struck me
right at where i never expected.
it nearly became my worse day to live
but then it passed and the pain was
too excruciating to handle and in the end
i became numb.
now i fell back to sleep
the refuge of mine.
woke up at 7pm.
and now i'm missing her.
man it's soo dead now.
there's nothing on.
somehow everything seems still.
lifeless. it's 2 days to new years eve
and all i can do is nothing.
what can i do...
i;m stuck at home.
if there was a fire in my house now
i'd die..
but i dun want too die.
yup..
some people believe in learning
by experience
but truthfully do u think an experience will help
if you get killed by it?
Don't u think that sometimes
experiences are just consequences
of your mistakes?
yes there are good experiences
but what about the bad one?
if it kills u and before that
u were just saying
i'll just learn from it.
it'll be useless.
stand clear. look ahead.
see the sun before it rises
for only then can you see that light
only comes from within.
success is only as far as you see it.
don't wait till it's too late.
don't wait till the sun has risen.
don't wait till you have nothing left
take it while u can
take the chance and tell them how much you
love them
take the opportunity to give them everything
for you do not know when this opportunity will
end. If you're broke. Give them love. Love that never dies.
Sometimes it's hard to love.
sometimes you see a totally different picture.
and you may never seem to paint the picture they want
but what matters most is your love stays pure.
It's hard sometimes to paint the picture they want
no matter how good your materials may be.
the picture will never be right.
but you may never know.
sometimes people can fall in love with
paintings but never the painter.
tell me how many people can speak about an art work
like it means everything but when
you ask them about the painter they
know nuts.
sometimes life is like that.
but however different our paintings may be.
somehow we can always choose to love it or hate it.
for behind every painting is a story.
a tales never heard before.
this is where you look beyond the physical and
into the heart.
for the paints and stokes are just random words
meaningless unless you look deep into it's detail.
the picture beyond the canvas.
but into the painters soul.
Look Deep not just whats on the outside
but what's in the heart itself.
written, poetic_tragedy
Sunday, December 23, 2007
8:44 AM
Wooot....
So i'm updating again.
Baby's back.
YAY!
ok so i'm down with a bad Cough.
Why would anyone curse me with a cough.
feel so drowsy most of the days.
i think i lack rest
but yeah.
i've been sleeping loads.
so... what's up man!
am i mad or am mad.
ok mad it is.
other then that i needa find a damn job.
how to go WYD if no money
and i got no cash for christmas!!!
Fucked up CAN!
piang eh.
it has brough me to misery
how to enjoy fully w/o cash!
cannot party all.
cannot give gifts.
feel so damn bad.
i know ppl have gotten stuff for me.
but me.
sigh disgrace.
i gotta hide my face.
i can't see anyone till new year
cause i dun wanna feel bad abt not
having anything big or nice for them.
oh man. how i wish i had worked.
screw hols man. they have mad me miserable now.
DAMN!..
Gotta find a job.
Gotta get gifts for everyone.
everyone i owe u'll k?
SRY!
really am.
prob leaving school too
changing school.
to some audio course. so yeah.
praying realy hard the army doesn't call.
if they do. i'd kill them.
yeah.
as for now.
i'm jobless and poor.
save my soul.
my pockets are always open for love offerings.=D
Thanks PEOPLE!
written, poetic_tragedyFriday, December 14, 2007
9:01 AM
Yay. in m'sia now.
sick as can be.
down with fever, flu, cough, sore throat
and some infection thing on my back ++ a HEADACHE!
how bad can a sickness be.
soo shagged
tml will be my aunts wedding
suppose to sing psalms
but how!?! so SICK!
haha.
needa wake at like 7 tml.
how dead am i
sooo drained
been riding round the kampong.
slack as can be.
gd stuff
but stuck with only eating soupy stuff
grrrrrr
wat to do.
life is simple when it's down.
sucky.It's all i got.
let's see
soup soup and soup...
OMG!!!! I LOST MY WALLET YESTERDAY!
Left it in the cab i think
Love was sitting right beside me
poor baby had motion sickness.
so she slept.
But how could i ever lose my wallet?!!!
lucky no IC or wateva can.
tsk tsk. so irresponsible.
Love was saying the way i stress over my Lost Wallet
was really funny
So yeah.
Glad i could make you day baby.
Love you.
NightS!
written, poetic_tragedy
8:51 AM
So i'm in m'sia now.
Real sucky.
ok yeah united with my family yadda yadda yadda
But parted from my beloved
Missing you Love.
Need ya here.
You know how i wish everyday
would be a day with you
baby i love you soo soo much
each day i spend away from you
is a day closer to seeing you
yet the day grows longer
keeping me from seeing my baby
as i wake in the morning i tell myself
it's gonna be over soon.
but as i wait. i can't help but
let my mind wonder when will it be over
my heart cries out to see you
i need you here
As you fly don't forget me
for from tommorrow morning
i'd be every wondering how is my baby
For 10days i have to wait
for 240hrs my heart cries out
but most of all. though time may put me on a trail
i'll wait for the day when my baby is back
and it'll dawn upon me that the wait was worth it.
Love you baby.
written, poetic_tragedyTuesday, December 11, 2007
7:22 AM
hey everyone.
i know haven't blogged for ages eh.
well i'm back from YI and all
better and all.
really let go lotsa stuff during that camp.
though i was in service team it was all good
things has gotten so much better after that
like with everything in life ya know
everything seems soo much better
well for now everythings fine.
i like how things are between us now.
really nice and sweet
gonna miss u..
i'm so tired now.
really long day.
well i'm gonna go now k.
Love ya..
written, poetic_tragedy